Let it be said that I really, really hate it when people aim low, and pass it off with an excuse such as "I can never do any better anyway, what's the point in trying?" Or "I don't want to aim too high." Overhearing people talk about your backup university as 'aiming too high'. Stuff like that. People I know, very good friends of mine even, not trying for something I know they can do.
Or do I?
I've always had relative academic success come to me. I've never tried very hard in school. The closest I've come to trying hard was reading my entire Chemistry textbook over 2 days in preparation for my AS-level exams. Oh, and blitzing Math past papers. Of course, I promptly forgot all the knowledge I amassed after I took the exam, but that's a little off-topic. I see people going to tuition and wonder what the hell they're doing in there. I see people working hard and feel a little guilty that I'm so damn lazy, but not enough to actually start working. (I'm probably spiralling academically down right now, since I haven't done any homework for weeks - and worse, I can't bring myself to CARE.) I go into exam halls feeling absolutely fucked and come out okay (although, of course, there have been times when I really was fucked lol).
I think exam technique is a big part of it. I suppose I should be thankful that I'm lucky enough to not have been in that frustrating situation where I know I know the answer, but just can't seem to remember it, and I'm panicking because time's running out, and oh shit it's coming to me, better write it dow- oh it's lost again, what the fuck man, not cool, not cool at all. If I don't know something, it's just blank white. Yeeeap. Don't know it. Damn. Haha. I guess I should also be thankful that so far, I've got through life without many problems. For all my talk of 'omg i'm dying', 'worked harder than i ever did in my life', well... I haven't worked very hard at all. I'm very lucky that whatever's sucking up my time hasn't impacted my grades more than the paltry bit it has. I don't know why. I don't know why I can't seem to get back into the mood either.
At any rate, I don't know whether to thank whoever is responsible, if there is anyone at all, for my seeming lack of academic problems, or to just be frustrated, because I starting to feel like I've never worked for anything in my life and this is starting to sound like the ranting of some spoiled upper echelon brat isn't it ahaha
I saw a guy who looked a lot like Mizushima Hiro on TVB (local channel) today. He was in the 7:00 RTHK show, the title was something about renting rooms. (Room for Hire?)